Laying here in the hostel bed, everyone’s sleep but me. Can’t sleep, in the morning I will wish I had. Tomorrow we tackle Moosilauke and enter the White Mountains. I have no idea what challenges are ahead but I know they are out there.
I try to sound confident and casual as I talk with other hikers. But my own concerns and fears I keep to myself. It’s been nice at the hostel meeting other hikers but it also makes me anxious. Hiking alone up till now I make my own pace, distance and choices. Now that I’ve met people I feel a pull to keep up, I feel slow.
Deep down I know the trail is about to school me. This next section will be physically, mentally and emotionally taxing, truth.
Become the Mountain Lion by refusing to hide in the cave of your own shyness or uncertainty. Roar with conviction roar with power and remember to roar with laughter for balance.
Thats what my cards read before I left. Really I pull the Mountain lion card! Couldn’t I have pulled the sloth or maybe a turtle. Fine (clears throat) I’m ready roar.
What I think I’m like roaring…
Reality….
wandering chardonnay 
Perhaps, in a Zen-kind Of way, the way you overcame the “Hanover Vortex “ & are about to attempt to overcome the White Mountains is to take “The Inner Middle Path Between Kitten & Mountain Lioness”? Your accomplishments remind me of a song by Helen Reddy, “I AM WOMAN “ 🙂 Enjoy Your Own Hike!!! TTYL
I almost used that I am woman song! Oh checking out that ragged edge book….
…been reading “Planetwalker” & “The Ragged Edge Of Silence” by John Francis… 🙂
I love it! Keep on trekkin’ Elsye…
You can do it, Chardonnay! Such a mountain kitty roar you’ve got it! Sending much love to you on the trail. Love, Kat / Halo Heartsong
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Thanks Kat! Hope you and the little one are well!!